Friday, November 28, 2008Y
I AM BACKhahaha... as my nick says... i am back... hahaha... ok i am juz being lame... i think to some ppl i am nt a good friend to be at all... because after leaving sch none will contact me... including pri sch... sec sch... and jc... probably from NTU too after graduate... i nv know... i know the reason y lyk tis... because i am weird and unkind to friends... i think that sometimes i talk to certain ppl in certain kind of ways tat makes ppl feel uncomfortable... i speak too fast without thinking... u know the words juz blurt out of my mouth b4 going thru my brain... however to some ppl... they feel tat it is alright because they know tat i was juz kidding and mean no harm... i know when i suan ppl sometimes it will hit straight into the heart.. those who are strong in heart managed to take it... those who dun will hate me forever for tat sentence... but till now i know tat ppl dislike is mostly because of my weird behavior... i mood swing v fast so one moment i can be happy the other moment sad or angry... or can i say tat i am easily affected by things happening ard me... oh... i also have a bad temper... i am easily agitated and starts shooting vulgarities off my mouth... i am sorry to ppl whom i always complain to with vulgarities... and to ppl who i once complained abt or scold... pls forgive me because tat is juz a moment of a folly tat i dun give chance... or shld i say i nv did... whatever it is u know who u are and i believe u have alrdy or will forgive me... because u have a BIG heart rite?? haha... i know u do... for those ppl who read my blog... which category do u belong to?? because i dun wanna lose any friends again... and i really hope i wont... haha... so sorry for the sentimental words again... i like to write wadever comes over my mind... haha... i realise tat ever since after jc i tried to change myself but i can sense the old me coming back... for a period of time i was someone different... i tried to do something tat ppl will see a change in me... lyk stop commenting on ppl... think b4 i talk... etc... but really the old me is coming back... tats y i am scared tat ppl will hate me again... yah lyk tat lor...
well... i always think tat i am dumb... and i really am... sometimes i do dumb things tat i really buey tahan of myself... i tink tat is y i always say ppl dumb... to cover up the fact that i am dumb... haha... pot calling the kettle black... say ppl first b4 ppl say me mah... haha... or i say myself first b4 ppl say me... den i wont feel so hurt when ppl say tat because i alr know and agree le... hohoho... next entry will be some happy stuffs... so yah... keep a lookout ahh... any of these days when i am free... which is almost everyday and when i have the mood to blog... tata...
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