LONELYi felt so lonely all of the sudden... haix... maybe because of the streaming thing and cooping at home all day long tat affects my mood... felt so lousy... and got a kind of kena depression the feeling...
my streaming results shows i got into EEE... which was my last choice... haha... see how lousy my results is... well... tis reminds me of my lousy results which i had finally got over it after some time... now it has come back... and i am the only one tat gets into EEE amongst all my friends... which means i will be solo again... juz lyk tat time i juz entered sch... and i very scared of EEE which is v difficult tat i may nt be able to graduate... i tink i am too dependent of friends alr... now the feeling of going to be alone really sucks... will be all alone in the first week... will have to start knowing new friends...
my phone hasnt rang for lyk so long really make me feel tat i have no friends... although i knew tat they are ard me all the time but still i tink tat except for friends from NTU i oni have frens tat are countable with my 10 fingers... tis feeling is sucky... tis holiday i decided to chiong in learning driving so i decided not to work... now i regretted... i wanted to do events too... cooping at home all day long really sucks... especially when nobody jio u out... i know i am the only one slacking and ppl working really hard... but somehow sometimes tis feeling of no friends keep ringing in my head... maybe is because s'pore is too small for ppl to go... tis kind of mixed feelings oso difficult to write it down...
i am not blaming anybody but only myself... how bastard/bitch i was in the past tat in the end i have only one close friend from sec sch n one close friend from jc tat are beside me till now... and i really appreciate tat... but both attached and busy... so now in NTU i really appreciate those friends tat are ard me... i believe tat we dun met by coincidence but by fate... i dun wanna lose any of u guys... i tried v hard not to octracise anybody and i am happy tat i have alr overcome tis... but being unable to be studying tgt has alr been a fact so i oso cant do anything... everytime tis feeling really make me think back... well... it is amazing tat i didnt cry because i forbid myself to do so... i know my life is alr v pleasant and comfortable...
well... for all the above... u all can tink i am writing crap... tata...
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